Yeah....then there's that.
The unmentionable of the most unmentionable. On my own path with this I had to go through this one too. Fairly young for it, bloodwork discovered I was 'pre' and the only hormone low as testosterone. Therein became a very long, eight year battle of the hormones and PTSD. There are those out there who always argue with me that women aren't given testosterone, but they are. There is also a reason that EMTs are trained to ask women if they are on Viagra. So… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 25, 2015 at 6:00am —
Groundhog day. This week someone described what my days are like as each day being a "groundhog day". To be honest they are very similar. My days are like a groundhog day in that each day is a new day. There are no yesterdays, no tomorrows except occasionally. The urgency I used to have about yesterday and tomorrow are just not there. Perhaps these "groundhog days" are a gift in a way?
My visual memory has been demolished. This I know. Yet as I've healed slowly it comes back and I… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 23, 2015 at 7:30am —
Being home alone and doing chores, taking a shower, talking a long walk or run. That's what my life contained before the TBI. My life was pretty routinized as I'd been working through PTSD issues. Then the nothingness, the forgetfulness after my head being slammed so hard I had Battle's signs on the left side although they didn't show immediately. I knew I was hurt more than I should have been. I was in such deep denial. My embarrassment wouldn't allow me to justify calling EMS. My subsequent… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 21, 2015 at 7:30am —
**Possible Trigger post***
Anymore I had difficulties remembering what last year was like, or even the year before. I know we had a profound loss of the matriarch of our family, I know I had to take my long time 'browned out' drug/protection dog to be put to sleep and I know that some terrible things happened in addition to this.
Most of all I know the response I have when things get tough, get too crowded. It was only a few months ago that I had a session that set off a… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 20, 2015 at 3:14pm —
Life just throws me for a loop sometimes. Triggers happen when I least expect them nor want them too. My eidetic memory returns so clearly at moments only to slip away again when I most want it to stay. Unreliable. This is how I see myself right now. I can't be counted on for remembering important things. If I don't put multiple alarms on my phone I forget to eat, to go to an appointment and worst of all, I often just forget what the alarm was for.
My most difficult issue is the… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 20, 2015 at 3:12pm —
Stress, feelings. They are supposed to go hand in hand right? What happens when your stress response is to just go so still inside? So quiet, so still that the stillness there is just a landscape of nothingness. I had the realization today what the domino effect of the original 'event' and subsequent triggers did.
There was no longer any screaming, no crying, no fighting back. Even though I'd thought I'd won because I got free? They'd won in ways I never understood. They'd won long… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 20, 2015 at 3:10pm —
***Strong Triggers in post**
I listen to a song today and it reminds me of how often I need to just breathe. Why this is so hard I do know, yet I still indulge in the moments of suspended animation. Trying to hold on to the moment to make things just stop. Just please stop. All this accomplishes is to cause a pounding in my head making my TBI injury location hurt with blinding pain. My chest constricts and my heart is pounding in my ribs so hard. All I've done is to make my… Continue
Added by Bree N. on January 18, 2015 at 6:00pm —
First responders have downloaded more than 10,000 copies of a guide to commercially available, hand-portable biodetection technologies created to help them determine what they might be up against in the field. Since many first responders do not always have immediate access to a computer, a mobile version of the guide… Continue
Added by Capt. Fyre Walker on January 12, 2015 at 12:22am —
First I want to say "Merry Christmas" and "Happy New Year" to all and hope everyone is doing good, your driving is going to get tested I believe in the next few days as I understand the weather is going to be changing for the worst if it has not already.
Let's take a minute and say some prayers for the 3 police officers that were killed in recent days and also to the people that have lost their homes in Mississippi.
Have a good day and take care wear your seat belts… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on December 25, 2014 at 10:08am —
First off wow, this was far more of a challenge than I ever expected...
Grocery shopping is a weekly challenge to begin with what with my loss of the meaning of money. So I give myself a small amount with a list if I go by myself to get a bit of groceries. I am to stick to the list, can't spend more than the list, stick to the danged list. Okay, stick to the list. By the time I get to store, a mere 3 minutes away, I had forgotten the list, wait, it's in my pocket. The list contains 3… Continue
Added by Bree N. on December 23, 2014 at 4:08pm —
Paul Harvey was a nationally broadcast radio commentator known to a generation of people who enjoyed his now you know "The rest of the story" brand of reporting. Mr. Harvey died in 2009 but fortunately much of his work has been preserved and is relevant today. From the public domain and in light of the attack our nations hero's have come under, reflect upon the following. CH Ron
Harvey said: “A policeman is a composite of what all men are, I guess, a mingling of saint and sinner, dust… Continue
Added by Ronald Jones on December 22, 2014 at 6:09am —
Lets take a minute and bow your heads in prayer for the Philly firefighter who died yesterday in a structure fire, the female firefighter had 11 yrs on the job, you never know. We train and train but its just one of those things that happen. Sorry if I am going on and on, but I hate to read and hear about this stuff, also I want to say another prayer for the ex-Police Chief here in Tonawanda who passed away Tuesday Dec. 2,2014 of brain cancer I knew him and my wife work with him years before… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on December 11, 2014 at 12:29pm —
Violators of the statewide Do No Call List, problems at the gas pump and motor vehicle repair problems were the top three complaints received in November at the Florida Department of Agriculture and Consumer Services. The majority of the 2,965 complaints received concerned the pesky calls consumers want to… Continue
Added by Capt. Fyre Walker on December 5, 2014 at 10:59pm —
Hanging holiday lights can be a fun family activity and adds a festive touch to your home. But if you’re not careful, yuletide illuminations can… Continue
Added by Cam Mitchell on December 4, 2014 at 9:53pm —
The chief deputy of the Hardee County Sheriff's Office died Thanksgiving of an apparent heart attack while sitting in his chair at work.
Hardee County Sheriff Arnold Lanier confirms 61-year-old Major Randy Dey was found by a co-worker unconscious this morning around 11.
"He came to work like it was any… Continue
Added by Tony Thomas on December 1, 2014 at 11:27pm —
Wake with my heart pounding and my body drenched in sweat. The dog is in my face whining and I realize I must have screamed out again. I check the time and see I've only been asleep 3 hours. An equal time passes, I finally sleep deeply for another 3 hours. A win to have fallen asleep without the assistance of medication.
I am pursued long and hard by this insomnia. It wishes me to be its everlasting partner. One who is abusive, scaring me with my own thoughts, emotions, my own body… Continue
Added by Bree N. on December 1, 2014 at 5:35pm —
**warning may contain small triggers in post**
Holidays. Wow, I look back at the past decade and my way of dealing? Work. Sign up for work, sign up for clinicals, work work and more work. Saw far too many 'family traditions' which involved all out fights including slamming a family member in the face with a cast iron frying pan. Gang bangers starting fights in the ER. Family love? Well, it just didn't always come across that day or season. I realize it hadn't… Continue
Added by Bree N. on November 28, 2014 at 3:00pm —
Well its snowing here in WNY as you may have read where I live we missed the "BIG" storm and glad we did. I feel sorry for those that did get the snow most of them by the lake or in the snow belt area, just hope they all made it through the warm weather we had sun-wed it was in the 60's from a week earlier of 18 to 20"s. This is some weird weather were are having here.
So we all need to make sure that are driving skills are what they should be very careful in the snow areas and… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on November 26, 2014 at 12:59pm —
If you’ve never tried deep fried turkey ~ it’s great! But keep in mind there are many risks associated with doing it. Check out these safety tips and a brief 2-minute video from Underwriters Laboratories.
Some turkey fryer hazards:
- Many units easily tip over, spilling the hot oil from the…
Added by Janet Liebsch on November 21, 2014 at 7:00pm —
Well it happen over night that bad snow storm hit south of me and most of Buffalo, Lackawana and below them there there are vehicles stuck and all kinds of business ,schools closed and lets remember our winter driving we need to get into the winter mode kinda watching out for the other person ( myself and a person I know always say they (the other driver)just don't care cause they will tell you I have insurance or why were you not watching out for me.
I have been down to my sons… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on November 18, 2014 at 9:16am —