(This Post is a "Daily Topic Reading" on Periscope & available on katche.me/Now_Bree & also posted to LifeBeyondPTSD.wordpress.com)
**Post Contains possibly triggering descriptions & strong language**
Not Everyone is Thankful.
I will say again, this topic contains warnings due to language, descriptions, and it is not a 'feel good' topic.
Today, as I checked my email to find a… Continue
Added by Bree N. on November 26, 2015 at 8:44am —
Compliments. They seem to simple to accept, right? Yes, they can be but what happens after PTSD, Traumatic Brain Injury? For me it's confusing to get compliments. I have to work hard to understand what they are and to attempt to figure out the intention behind them. What I remember about compliments is they often are concealed behind a facade of attempting to 'groom' others. Compliments make a person uncomfortable. Okay, so what?
Saying compliments right off the bat to someone is often… Continue
Added by Bree N. on November 14, 2015 at 6:20pm —
Each November 11, we honor the courage and sacrifice of the men and women who have served in our Armed Forces and fought to protect our freedoms. We owe a tremendous debt of gratitude to our nation’s military.
Salute to all of you from myself as a Veterans to all of you
Added by Bob Allard on November 11, 2015 at 2:52pm —
Writing saved my life.
I've written since I was a child and one of the first Christmas gifts I remember and still have is from an Auntie who gave me a blank book. It was a memo book, inexpensive, but had a handwritten note inside telling me to write, to journal. I've never looked back since. To this day I can hardly leave a store without a blank book of some kind. Some stay blank for years. Others only partially full and yet others only have a few pages written in. Later in life as… Continue
Added by Bree N. on November 6, 2015 at 5:00am —
Well I had a rough week starting with last Wednesday when I became ill to the point I had to go to the ER for fluids as I was dehydrated and they also gave me some meds to calm my stomach down and to stop the nausea. Yes I was very sick and I don't get sick to the point of hospital visit. I do not go to those places every time I feel sick. I have to be all most dead before I go. My wife loaded me into her vehicle and away we went, messed her evening up from her paint group and we were there… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on October 30, 2015 at 4:40pm —
"It will get better, it will get easier"
Those phrases used to really piss me off. My inner response was always "yeah, like THAT will every happen!" But reality does step in, it does gets better, slowly but surely it has, it does. I have all the tools in place to deal with the tough stuff which comes but still I have triggered moments. These are no longer days and that is the key. I'm in control of my own life and you know what? I always was, it just felt like it was out of my… Continue
Added by Bree N. on October 30, 2015 at 5:00am —
Wednesday I participated in a Video Roundtable discussion about PTSD in Fire/EMS with Dr. Will Brooks, Nathalie Michaud, and Leckey Harrison put together by Robert Avsec for Fire Chief Digital. A short time ago I would have flat out said no to this opportunity. There was no way I could keep up with a conversation. I still have difficulties with keeping focused and tend to get stressed by conversation when I’m trying to listen, follow what they are saying and constructing my response to what… Continue
Added by Bree N. on October 23, 2015 at 9:01am —
Breathing in the night air I lean back in the chair on the patio to look at the stars in the sky. They are numerous and beautiful, each of them winking in their own rhythm at me. Relaxing outside while my dogs play and explore has become a new routine of my day to day life. It's something I couldn't conceive of doing 2 years ago. Before that time I would lean out to call them back, hoping against hope I would not have to take those few steps outside the door into the yard. Now, I smile, I laugh… Continue
Added by Bree N. on October 16, 2015 at 5:00am —
After much discussion with my therapist I've decided to NOT continue my PTSD Series: Splintered Self. This year has held so many changes and so much growth that to dig back into the past is not conducive to my continued healing.
For now I am going to take a hiatus as I move through this season of previously difficult times in an effort to change this time of year back into a season of joy and fun.
The conclusions I have finally arrived at:
My life is not… Continue
Added by Bree N. on October 3, 2015 at 10:11am —
****Contains possibly offensive language, description of inner life after brain injury*****
I have a traumatic brain injury.
It's so easy to try and downplay this issue. To pretend it really isn't or wasn't 'that bad'. I had appointments I kept forgetting about, missing (and got charged for anyway) and times where I'd sat not moving for hours on end. I had no sense of the passing of time. I did not recognize the person in the mirror. Every day I got up I did… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 30, 2015 at 8:52am —
We the vacation is over again for another two years and we had fun and the weather was on our side. We were in Scotland and the weather can be difficult if you know what I mean(raining. We had one day were it just kept raining but for the most part it was you just ran that intersection with out even looking there has been to many roll overs and accidents with Public services vehicles and private vehicles, sure hope you had your seat belt on at least. Did I just not read… Continue
Added by Bob Allard on September 29, 2015 at 1:54pm —
Bullying. Is it possible you are being a bully online? Wait, what?! It seems easy to distinguish right? Well...not always so easy. The media and most of how cyber bullying and bullying in general is portrayed as seems rather straightforward. Bullies bully right? Yes they do and sometimes it's not the way you think.
I know I've written about bullying, cyberbullying and since being back in the public eye via Periscope I am going to revisit the topic. Bullying is not always about… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 23, 2015 at 9:00am —
I put out a challenge this past Sunday. It's evolved now into a hashtag: #UniformAppreciationChallenge and it's about saying "I/We/Our Family appreciates you and THANK YOU via the hashtag, on a 'Scope' on FaceBook, somewhere on social Media.
Added by Bree N. on September 22, 2015 at 8:31am —
****Can be offensive to those who don't understand TBIs*****
Should I put a disclaimer on my scopes stating "Rated R for Language?" I really didn't think I was that bad. But, I know I also don't always know when I've said inappropriate words out loud. I try really hard, I do and yet all it causes is massive brain exhaustion. Each time I've been invited to a serious discussion on 'Blab' it stresses me out. Plus I end up having to lay down and rest after due to being brain… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 20, 2015 at 11:00am —
It is with the utmost sadness that the Prince George’s County Fire/Emergency Medical Services (EMS) Department announce the sudden passing of retired Deputy Fire Chief Carla D. Blue. Carla Blue retired in October 2009 after 20 dedicated years of service to the Department and to the residents of Prince George’s…
Added by Cam Mitchell on September 19, 2015 at 3:15pm —
I'm in my safe place inside my mind. It's this incredible clearing I can go to to 'disassociate' myself. Every single time at the dentist's office I've had to do this as we've been on a long road of repairing teeth. For quite some time after the TBI I couldn't get to this place and the dentist, a kindly man, had to endure my triggered panic responses. I'd come home, face numb to lay in my bed in the dark trying for the life of me to remember why I was so scared. Laying there for days… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 18, 2015 at 5:00am —
What am I wanting to talk about? I had it in my mind yesterday in the car on my way home from the dentist. I really hate that particular bit of living with TBI, I hate this more than anything. I know it's supposed to be 'normal' to forget things yet I never know for sure if it's 'normal' forgetfulness or the TBI.
I rolled over in bed for the alarm and groaned. My body hurts, I'm stiff in my back (lumbar degeneration) and hips, my head is pounding alarmingly. My PTSD companion… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 16, 2015 at 10:00am —
It has been a big discussion on social media: motorists who use their hazard lights while driving in the rain.
In Florida, it is illegal to drive with your hazard lights. Hazards lights are for stopped vehicles only.
The one situation where Florida drivers are allowed to use their… Continue
Added by Jesse James Jessup on September 13, 2015 at 11:30pm —
Avoidance. I'm right there as my terrible season approaches. Avoidance for me turns very quickly into pushing the physical in order to not feel a damn thing. Pushing the weights (sans testosterone on board) is one outlet although now I can't do that for a long time like before. Hitting the bag outside until I can feel my adrenaline rush up and all I can feel is the sensation of hitting that bag. It's really satisfying and that in and of itself is addicting.
I had the sudden… Continue
Added by Bree N. on September 13, 2015 at 5:00am —
Amazing story from a flight attendant on Delta Flight 15, written following 9/11/2001:
"On the morning of Tuesday, September 11, we were about 5 hours out of Frankfurt, flying over the North Atlantic. All of a sudden the curtains parted and I was told to go to the cockpit, immediately, to see the… Continue
Added by Janet Liebsch on September 11, 2015 at 9:20am —